“There are so many positions of love:
each curve on a
the thousand ways your eyes can hold us,
the infinite shapes each mind
the spring orchestra of scents and sounds wafting through the air,
the currents of light combusting like
the revolution of the universe’s skirt, whose folds
contain other worlds,
our every sigh that falls against
His inconceivably close,
I love the line “whose folds contain other worlds”. It gives me an expansive feeling that conveys a sense of the enormity and unfathomable scale of the universe. If the universe is this big there is a place for me in it.
I’m going to share resources that helped me survive.
Ever since I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2001 I thought there must be some other way of treating the symptoms other than drugs.
When I looked into it I found out that numerous people have advocated other methods for healing mental distress other than pharmaceuticals. However the National Health Service only invests in psychiatric drugs. Or I should say drugs are used to treat acute distress. Drugs and psychiatric hospitals.
The NHS is like a Stalinist edifice when it comes to mental health. They only supply ‘evidenced based’ treatments but as others have pointed out a lot of the studies ‘proving’ the efficacy of psychiatric drugs are bought studies paid for by the pharmaceutical companies. The evidence is little more than marketing really.
As a psychiatric patient or consumer you really have little input into your treatment. Discusssions with doctors about alternatives just meet a brick wall. Most psychiatrists are trained to dole out pills and can’t conceieve that other ways would work.
Contacting the health service administration yields nothing either they just defer to the evidence base (drugs company marketing).
So who do you take it to then? The politicians. “We are not medically trained” they say and defer to the doctors. It’s a self defeating loop of confirmation bias. Because the system of drugs and psychiatric hospitals and the current legal framework is all there is that is all these administrators can conceptualise of in their paucity of imagination.
The mental health system is very very dreary and doesn’t allow any participation by patients. You are ‘done unto’ you don’t have a say. Despite there being lots of shiny posters about patient voice and patient inclusion. Patient inclusion is channeled into pointless tick boxes and toothless committees and quangos.
The mental health system is inherently frustrating. Also most of the public is saturated with drug company marketing about chemical imbalances. Every time you mention mental health people just tell you how important it is to take the drugs until you just give up and stop complaining.
Also it’s fiendishly hard to actually get off psychiatric drugs. The withdrawal effects of drugs look much like the original illness.
Thee is no mention of this in the NHS but I’m sure that the science behind NHS psychiatry is far from scientific. The drugs largely tranquilise but the doctors hide behind this dogma that they are targetting certain areas of the brain and neuro transmitters. How this charade is allowed to go on in the post #MeToo era beggars belief. Presumably it’s more convenient to just keep mental health patients drugged. If that’s the case why not just admit it rather than hide behind the pretence you are doing medicine. It’s incredibly frustrating and I’m not sure what the answer is. Can I risk ruining my life by coming off psych drugs. Why is this system based on lies. As a mental health patient it makes you question how much else of society is just lies and marketing.
Hi, my name is K. I live in the United Kingdom. I have diagnoses of bipolar disorder and paranoia. This is my blog to explore mental health.
Ive been involved in mental health activism before but I was reading mental health articles on the New York Times website and finding that I had a lot of interest and energy around the topic. I don’t wanna dwell too much on my own story. I want to write about mental health overall, services and society. I will weave in bits of my story here and there.
So I had a diagnosis of bipolar since age 20. Then in around 2015/16 I began to develop paranoia. In fact one doctor suggested that my struggles were a personality disorder known as emotional unstable. That was never confirmed though.
I just feel like there is so much rhetoric about mental health but a lot of it is perpetuated by vested interest such as the government and big drugs companies.
I just want to write a bit about mental health.